Let’s Talk about Sensitivity
Crying will not help you in anything..in life
When I was little or even in my teenage years, I would avoid problems then ducked out and cried myself during any type of problems. Whether it is about money, quarrels or anything and that branded me as an “Oversensitive” person. Added that to the chart that I am a woman, working and a daughter. Imagine how the criticism would be, right? It even hurts that your own family member said it to your face. “You’re always crying when dealing with such simple problem”, “It will not help you but bring you down among people”, “you’re weak and weird”. Try to have it on your face for these past years.
I do have to admit I did cry and love a good cry. I cried when I was dealing my job at my previous work and I was proud of it because from that overly sensitive crying act, I do know who should I trust at the end of it. Some people are meant to criticized you and never built you up. I remembered meeting that unexpected mentor when I was failing my probation and she gave me another chance by talking some sense with me. “If you’re not wrong, defend yourself. Don’t be ashamed of yourself because you did nothing wrong. So, if anyone disrespect you, defend yourself and said that I AM RIGHT”. This sentence stuck with me until now when I was feeling that people are just plain arrogant and have superiority complex. Dealing with those type of people is what I am dealing with every day of my life and hey, sometimes I cried when I am angry with them but I barked at them when I needed to.
Since I am very, very pregnant, my emotions ran the best of me nowadays. I tend to cry easily and pissed off easily and I know this is not good so I tried to mediate my attention to what makes me happy and blocked everything that pissed me off including my own family. I think this is okay because your own sense of sane is what is important not what other people thinks of you. Being able to be ignorant is pretty much a bliss on each own to be frankly honest. If they would scold you, then act with silence as it will eventually kill them (not literally).
Finally, accept yourself that you are sensitive or crier or someone that easily gets angry or anything. You don’t need to change yourself for the sake of others. DO WHAT MAKES YOU COMFORTABLE IN YOUR OWN SKIN. Not many of us have the ability to do that even when you have been aged a lot (like our parents who I still thinks have their own issues). So, if you already achieved it at such a young age, bravo for that and don’t be ashamed of it. We can’t pleased everyone but at least we can pleased ourselves.
So, who are you? Have you accepted who you really are? At this time of stay at home period, we have a lot of time on our mind to meditate and think of ourselves for a change.
